A change for the better

Unbranded top, Gesale skirt, ICONinety9 shoes, Buddy Books note

I just got back from having another meeting with the staffs for the orientation days today. And oh how I miss being busy again. I just wish that I can work with the people I know because most of them are new friends. I've been spending my time alone. Like eating alone, jogging alone, shopping alone... My friends haven't come back from their hometown and they'll be here on 13th August so it's still a long way to go until we're reunited. But I'll be busy with some preparations for the orientation days as well so I hope I don't have to feel lonely!

Lately I've been looking different, my mom says. For those of you who happen to be following me on Snapchat and Instagram, well, I've been doing some massive changing on my lifestyle. Why, why now, why all of a sudden? It all begins when I realized my period was late. No, I'm not pregnant. I'm on my period now but I missed my period on July. I didn't have my July period so I went through the entire month without having any period. I told my mom about it and she suspected me if I ever had sex with anyone. Mom, seriously... And then I came up to my friend and he told me maybe it was my hormone. Yes, I asked a boy about late period. He then suggested me to take some drugs and drink a traditional drink to bring back my routine period. And I did what he said. Now I can have my period back. But afterwards, I think about what he told me about my hormone. All this time, for the last six months living far away from my friends, I had a very terrible lifestyle. I consume too much bottled drinks, oily foods, I rarely do sports, I sleep all the time thus my body doesn't have the time to burn all those fats, and I almost never ate vegetables or fruits. During that time, I could actually feel my body becoming weaker and weaker each day. I only took some vitamin C to keep my metabolism maintained but I knew it wouldn't be enough.

And after the accident, where I skipped July's period, I realized it's time to change my lifestyle.

I have always wanted to start a healthy life. I just didn't know how to start or what to do. But I've promised to myself this time that I will set myself a schedule and I will try my best to follow my own schedule. I talked to my doctor at first and he set out a few options about what I should and shouldn't do because I have a very weak heart and lungs so I better don't push myself too hard on this. I started everything by choosing carefully of what I eat. Less carbo, more vegetables and fruits. I was never a fan of eating rice, since rice is the number one source of carbo, I have no problem getting rid of it from my eating list. So I try to eat rice only once a day or even more, not at all. But that's pretty hard to do because most of the Indonesian foods here are always served with rice. I also make a schedule on when to eat. I don't eat anything at night anymore, not even a tiny bit of snacks. I only eat fruits and salad and drink more water every night to keep my tummy full. I postpone my breakfast and lunch so I have shorter time to feel hungry. I can now eat only once a day, with fruits and water as my "snack". The doctor says my body will feel a little bit weird and I will experience some nausea because of the changing food supply but it can be balanced by doing sports to keep my stamina. So I tried to set out my own schedule for jogging and doing some minor sports (like push ups, sit ups, and squats). I even use an app to keep track of my calories (ever heard about Nike+ app?) (yeah that actually helps me a lot).

I've been doing this for a while now, and I don't know... I feel so content and happier.

I'm so proud of myself because I can actually start doing a diet program. All this time I thought it would be impossible for me to do that especially because I live far away from my parents now and no one will pay attention on what I eat and what I do. But turns out I finally did it! And I can see the change right before my eyes. It's my third day doing sit ups, push ups, and squats. And my stomach has loosen 3 cm. I mean, it's real. And I wish I did this earlier. Not just it makes me healthier, it also shapes my body. Because honestly, I feel like I'm overweight, you know. Like, I'm supposed to be 18 kilos lighter than I am now. It's the ideal weight for someone as petite as I am, ha! So yeah, it's like killing two birds with one stone.

Okay, okay, enough about that. So, here's the outfit that I wore the other day, you might have seen me wearing the top on my Instagram. I got it in during my return to Bekasi. I told you there's this one mall where I can get basically anything I've been looking for. Yep, I got this top the same place where I bought my kimono vest. I wore it again today to the meeting and it was quite hot today so I sweat a lot in this top. I then exchanged my pants with the skirt (that you've seen me wearing for many times in this blog) and the shoes because I'm sure I bore you guys with the same fucking shoes everytime I post outfit posts. Well, when you love one particular shoes you just keep wearing them all the time! But this time it's different. I opted for my houndstooth flats that I got from ICONinety9, another favorite store of mine where I got most of my shoes here.

A late birthday gift from my high school friends!

Black is my happy colour

So, yeah! I guess that's all for today. I'm so happy to be back on blogging again. I'm happy to be back on my routine taking outfit photos for the blog and editing them afterwards. I wonder if any of you guys made some big changes recently that actually affects your life? I'm looking forward to hear from you guys! 'Til then, have a nice day! xo