Hi people! How's your day? I'm about to start my two weeks holiday before the final exam at collage takes place. Gotta admit that I'm totally nervous because my last failure on midterm exam keeps on haunting my days. I have to work hard this time around so I won't disappoint my parents! Anyway, since that means I have a lot of spare time to spend, yesterday me and a few friends from Sanggar decided to go to the beach again to see the sunrise. It's becoming a tradition you know, randomly driving our way to the beach in the most awkward time. I guess we're just weird like that, haha. But first we hopped off to Eri's house because it was still 10 pm and we didn't want to spend too much time on the beach because our main purpose was to see the sunrise only. There were seven of us, and when we waited at Eri's bedroom, I spotted this cute big teddy bear sitting nicely on his bed's corner! I laughed so hard because I didn't expect Eri to be a type of boy who keeps cute stuffs, especially stuffed animals. But then he said this was supposed to be his ex girlfriend's teddy bear, but when they broke up, she came to him and returned it. Well, her lose. Because now this beautiful and puffy teddy belongs to me! Eri wholeheartedly gave it to me because he said there's no point for him for keeping the doll in his room. And I was so happy because I don't really have any stuffed animals to be hugged when I sleep. And this is the biggest doll I have ever had. So so happy!

Unbranded batik dress and skirt | ELIZABETH shoes

I'm currently running out of words because I'm catching up with a lot of things right now. But I still want to let you know that I'm still alive. Year end is coming and I feel both excited and worried. Because of many things, of course. Oh well, this photo was taken when dad took me to attend his business colleague's wedding and being the good daughter that I am, I went along.

Unbranded top and skirt, Elizabeth shoes

Since I don't regularly update my blog again (because tumblr has been such a dear to me) (blogging becomes really easy there!), I guess I'm gonna make today's post a little bit long. Just a little sum up of my current life. So how do I get start? College life has been a little bit ruined with mid-term exams because the result is starting to be published and let's just say I didn't pass at one subject. It was a godamn important subject most of all and I didn't pass. I admit it, I didn't study hard during mid-term and hung out with my friends instead. But I'm not one who keeps dwelling over my failure for too long. There's still final exam next December and I'll make sure that this time the same failure won't get me.

As for my current life in Sanggar; I'm in the middle of a very busy week. Lots and lots of projects are coming my way and I need to stay focus because honestly it's quite hard for me to keep up on two things all at once. I mean both college and my activities at Sanggar. Sometimes I wonder why my parents didn't let me to get into an art school because studying law isn't really my biggest passion. I still want to study at the other faculty, FIB for example. Fakultas Ilmu Budaya totally has my name all over it and would I be accepted at FIB this year, everything wouldn't be too hard, would it? I mean, I love studying about culture and language, aside from performing arts. And surely, exams wouldn't take too much of my energy because I know I love what I'm studying. But oh well, this is my life now and if I want to survive, I gotta deal with it.

Also, today marks my first month anniversary with my boyfriend! Yaaaayyyy! Like, finally oh my lords I finally have a boyfriend! I'd like to tell you how we first met because this kind of relationship is really messy and funny and all but I've written down everything I remember on my tumblr so maybe you want to jump over there and browse over the tag 'love' :) He's not technically my boyfriend because we don't share any status together, but everyone sees us as a couple and they start calling me as his girlfriend, and vice versa. Well, wouldn't mind that calling anyway, ha! I'm still learning how to be the good girlfriend before we get more serious and since this is my first relationship, somehow everything seems so exciting! I'm a little bit afraid, honestly, because I'm the type of person who always loves more in a relationship. I'm still not ready yet if one day I have to end this with him. But please wish me luck for everything >,< I just don't wanna lose him!

Friend's top, Nevada pants, Gowigasa bag, Airwalk shoes

Previously, I didn't expect at all to join with Sanggar. My first intention was to join with the organization that would help me to support my future work as an ambassador, which in other words, organizations like ALSA (Asian Law Student Association) or MUN (Model United Nations), or probably even Dema (Dewan Mahasiswa or student council). But it all changed when I saw the girls from Dancer Soul performed rancak dance at the closing ceremony of PPSMB Merdeka. And it was really really beautiful, so cool like I had my eyes a little bit teary at that time because seriously, I've been dancing traditional dance for years and I know it's perfect when I see one. Not to mention that one of my favorite senior was a part of the dance, so in the end, I decided to join the Dance Division in Sanggar. I was really late when I returned the form, and I mis-read the the column where it supposed to say which field I wanted to apply in, but I read it as 'which field you have been on before' instead. So I stupidly checked all the divisions except one; theater. Because clearly, I had no theatrical background and I can't act. Until finally on the same day, kak Eva asked for the dance kids to assemble on our first meeting. The main point was to ask us if we could lay a help for theater because they still needed more players. Everyone from Dancer Soul came on the first trial. But then after knowing how hard it was to play on the theater, some of us started leaving, until finally, me, Cyn, and Rhia were choosen as the (not so) lucky one to play. I didn't know if I had to feel happy or sad because one side I realized of my own capability and I knew I had so little confidence to even act on the stage, but on the other hand, I was wondering about it because I never made it into the theater, so it’s totally a whole new experience for me. And suddenly Rhia pulled herself out of the production, leaving me and Cyn. I was confused at first because Mr. Director told us that we would play as surrealist actors and as much as I knew, surrealist was one of the hardest genre in theater. I didn't know if I could make it or not. But I learned everything step by step, starting from how to show my expression until how I move from one point to the other. It was all a whole new experience for me. I was scared to show my expression to the public, and I was having trouble for not having loud voice to speak with, but now it all has changed because I could finally open that one box which hid all my confidence all this time. I have been a really shy girl to act on stage, but now I'm not anymore. Even more, I get addicted with the applause from the audience. Mr. Director was indeed true; awalnya cuma coba-coba, sekarang justru ketagihan teater haha.

Here are the photos when we performed at Pendopo Tejakusumo FBS UNY last Friday. I can't believe it's been a week since then. The title of the play is "Ayahku Stroke, Bukan Mati" which was fully handled by kak Vandi, aka Mr. Director. Check them out!

This one is kak Mitha. She's from Communication, which I don't know which batch, from UPN. Yep, so this theater play doesn't consist only the kids from Law UGM, but also from other faculty, even other university. That's why I'm so glad I got the chance to be one of the actors in this play because I get a lot of new friends through this! The kids say that kak Mitha looks like my long lost older sister and we could finally see each other again here, haha! Maybe it's because the fact that we both love to laugh even over the littlest thing and we wear glasses with the same medium length hair. Much resemblance?

This is kak Mitha's boyfriend, kak Aji. He also comes from UPN majoring technical engineering. He's quite a funny man and has this friendly look from his face. He got double role this time and it was really entertaining to see him running across the backstage to get all his costumes done on time!

Kak Riyan and kak Begum!

Kak Helvi and kak Age from Psychology UGM '12!

My fellow classmate (most of the classes, well), Cyn.

My boy (the one in dark blue shirt) before he turned to be the Red Devil.

Music team from Justimun!

Yep, so this is the transformation that I had to go through to be the misguided ghost. Gotta admit that I was really concerned about my hair-do because it was terribly damaged to get the 'messy' effect of a ghost. Fortunately the hair-do team didn't use any hair spray and let me had my half-dead-half-alive hair as how it was without further ado. Because if they did, I swear I would have ran to the nearest salon the same night to get my hair repaired and done. It loosed down again the next morning after I washed it with conditioner. Thank's to kak Lukas from Art Division for the make up!

The ‘gay’ doctor, doctor Deddy!

See? Told you so...

This friend over here is another surrealist actor who played along with me. His name is Fakhrul. He acted as the Grim Reaper. And eventhough he only showed up on stage only for a brief few seconds, his role was the coolest one among us surrealist actors! I kinda disagree tho because Dharma still amazes me as the Red Devil.

Clay senpai, the player button pusher! ;p